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Prologue
00:06
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TERROR
Terror...this is what you call me
I strike terror among men
I can't be bothered by what they think
I bare my cross
My soul, myself
I forgive
But I never forget
I've been put upon this earth
In female form
But I can handle myself
With the best of you
As well as the worst
And I often have
I have the right to remain silent
But I choose to speak
Sing, scream
I am lips, hips, tits
I am the power of a woman
Strong like music
True like friendship
But without my friends
There would be no music
Only spoken word
Fucker
Fucker
I am able to change
So I live without regret
Without remorse
Only a remix
I am drunk
I am sober
Heaven doesn't want me
And Hell's afraid I'll take over
Don't bother trying to censor me
Or shut me up
Because it won't work
I am cold and distant
Yet warm and close
To those who deserve
To see that side of me
Part of me
The heart of me
You find me so hard to understand
In your world
The world you perceive to be
So normal
I am deformed
Scorned, reborn
I am me
And I know exactly who I am
What I am
And the wrath I bring
The ugly beauty
The lying truth
The virgin whore
The quiet storm
A lover, a fighter
A saint, a sinner
A sister, a daughter
Old school, a beginner
I have decorated myself
With love, hate
Truth, you
All of you
Both of you
None of you
More than one of you
Fucker
Fucker
With lips like sugar
Eyes like meat
I've watched men come
And go and cheat
I sleep to dream
And dream of sleep
I had a dream Joe
That you were standing
In the middle of an open road
I had a dream Joe
That your hands were raised up to the sky
And your mouth was covered in foam
I've been crucified
Justified
And mortified by my behavior
Both feminine and masculine
I am a contradiction
A juxtaposition
My relief is my release
And only time will tell
All's well that ends well
I am unsweetened
Unclean
Been called drama queen
Ex-girlfriend
Ex-member
The tantrum
The temper
I point my finger
Take the blame
And this time I will own the name
Because no one is going to ruin me
If I have to
I will ruin myself
And it will be My Ruin
Fucker
Fucker
Fucker
Fucker
Fucker
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3. |
Preacher
03:34
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PREACHER
It was a long time ago
Longer now than it seems
A place that perhaps
You have seen in your dreams
Welcome to my world
Is it what you thought it would be
I'm trapped inside this hell
Between blood queen and purgatory
A Coop filled covered hall
A tattooed babydoll
I've got the Devil in my corner
And Jesus on my wall
Today is an oatmeal day
I feel like a monster babe
Preacher save me with your call
And I will be your Little Miss Scareall
One eye's green, one eye's blue
Demon's, angels a love that's true
Catch me as I start to fall
Let me be your Little Miss Scareall
Halloween is over
But I will keep you scared
Take you to the fright side
I know you'll come prepared
Be your deadly nightshade
Turn your Christmas black
And you can be my
Johnny Homicidal Maniac
Today is an oatmeal day
I feel like a monster babe
Preacher save me with your call
And I will be your Little Miss Scareall
One eye's green, one eye's blue
Demon's, angels a love that's true
Catch me as I start to fall
Let me be your Little Miss Scareall
Forgive me preacher
For I have sinned
It's been three weeks
Since my first confession
I am the one
Hiding under your bed
My teeth are sharp
My lips are red
I am the one
Hiding under your stairs
With snakes and spiders in her hair
I feel like a monster babe
Little Miss Scareall
I feel like a monster babe
Little Miss Scareall
I feel like a monster babe
Little Miss Scareall
I feel like a monster babe
Little Miss Scareall
I feel like a monster
Feel like a monster
I feel like a monster babe
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4. |
Tainted Love
03:45
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TAINTED LOVE
Sometimes I feel
I've got to...run away
I've got to...get away
From the pain
You drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
For I toss and turn
I can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a girl could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Now I know
I've got to...run away
I've got to...get away
You don't really want any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
And you think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way
Once I ran to you
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a girl could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now it's time you pack your things and go
Tainted love
Tainted love
Touch me baby
Tainted love
Don't touch me with your
Tainted love
Touch me baby
Tainted love
Don't touch me with your
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
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5. |
Blasphemous Girl
03:43
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BLASPHEMOUS GIRL
God
Drunk with sin
She sits in her skin
Filled with anger
Fueled by liquor
Drowns in dreams
With no savior
From the truth
None can save her
He is her own
Personal Jesus
And he will not be her last
God wants a piece of her ass
God wants a piece of my ass
I am
A blasphemous girl
I am
A blasphemous girl
I am
A blasphemous girl
I am
A blasphemous girl
Magnum mouthed
I shoot to kill
You murder me
With lies and guilt
Strangle me
With tragic hands
God wants a piece of her ass
God wants a piece of my ass
I am
A blasphemous girl
I am
A blasphemous girl
I am
Stab me
Like a stalker
Rape me
Like a hero
Stab me
Like a stalker
Rape me
And be my hero
Bless me darling
And I will forgive you
Eloquent
And full of grace
You speak in tongues
Behind my back
A dry lung vocal martyr
I will suffer
For my lover
I will suffer
For his sins
I will suffer
For my lover
I am suffering for him
Torture me
With timelessness
Worship my fist
With every kiss
Resurrection
Of my pain
Drag me down
Our memory lane
Introduce me
To devotion
Leave me numb
With no emotion
Stars surround you
When I feel you
You look better
When I cannot see
You
Honesty
Looks good on you
But liar
Should be your tattoo
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6. |
Close Your Eyes
05:30
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CLOSE YOUR EYES
This place is hell to me
And I can never get no sleep
There's a devil in my bed with me
Whose talk is cheap
You feel like heaven to me
All I wanna do is sleep
You're like an angel lying next to me
You look so sweet
Close your eyes
And let's pretend
Remember why
We're just friends
My tangled hair will weave
A web of lies within my sheets
And in the morning
I'll be nailed where he crucified me
Your blackened hair will leave a stain
Within my mind so deep
And when tomorrow comes
I'll wish that you would worship me
Close your eyes
And let's pretend
Remember why
We're just friends
There must be a storm in London tonight
Because it's cold and raining hard
My body aches
My lover waits
I pick the scabs from my arms
There must be a storm in LA tonight
Because it's cold and raining hard
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I miss the stars of your arms
The man that I lust
In he do I trust
For he is my God
My anti Jesus
He is my savior
My salvation
He leads me into temptation
In my highest hour
My lowest moment
He is my torture
He is my torment
And I will pray for him
To remain my friend
And save me from my enemies
Forever amen
This place is hell to me
And I can never get no sleep
There's a devil in the bed with me
Whose talk is...cheap
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7. |
Absolution
03:27
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ABSOLUTION
I wanna live in the pretty sun
But daylight just makes me numb
So I cover up my scars
With velvet drapes that kill rockstars
Change my mood
Lick my wounds
Trust will lead us to the truth
Drown myself in misery
Sleep with my enemy
Destroy my destiny
Erase the memory...of you
Open myself to reveal my wounds
And I find the memory of you
Open myself to reveal my wounds
And I find the memory of you
Open myself to reveal my wounds
And I find the memory of you
Open myself to reveal my wounds...
I wanna die on the blackest night
When there's no one left to fight
Fill my bed with leopard fur
Think of you inside of her
Suffer for my latest sin
Until I'm happy in my skin
Open myself to reveal my wounds
And I find the memory of you
Open myself to reveal my wounds
And I find the memory of you
Open myself to reveal my wounds
And I find the memory of you
Open myself to reveal my wounds...
I ache for you
I ache for us
I pray for you
I pray for us
I wait for you
I wait...
Deny thy lover and refuse thy name
First, last and always
Deny thy lover and refuse thy name
First, last and always
Deny thy lover and refuse thy name
First, last and always
Deny thy lover and refuse thy name
First, last and always
When will you tell me the truth
When will you tell you the truth
When will you tell me the truth
When will you tell you...
My revenge on you will not kill you
It will make you want to kill yourself
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HORRIBLE PAIN (within my heart)
I invoke him
And he comes to me in my dreams
Dressed in black
He speaks in a language only I can understand
His hands are warm
His breath is hot
He is the horrible pain within my heart
My religion
My sanctuary
My church
My sacrifice
My Confession
My exorcism
My worship in progress
I have no other lover
Now until forever
He is magic
And when he kisses me
I can taste him on my lips
Like an elixir
Far from innocent
He is pure evil
A sinner's prayer
A saint's desire
For him, I would walk through fire
For him, I have walked through fire
To draw him I want so bad
One gift I'll never have
He drives a stake into my soul
Makes me bleed
Makes me whole
Drinks me
Devours me
Intoxicates me
With his love
Hate, devotion, faith
As beautiful as Jesus Christ
He is as brutal as the depths of hell
In my dreams
I press my mouth against his
And I feel heaven
Horror
Terror
He looks at me with that look
I call his serial killer look
Like he wants to fuck me
And kill me all at the same time
It scares me
It turns me on
His eyes are brown his stare is intense
Meaningful
Powerful
Maybe that's why he is so fucking scary
Because he means it
Sometimes he tells me he loves me
As he looks at me with that look
Sometimes he doesn't have to
I've never felt a man look at me like this
It's almost creepy
Uncomfortable
Sexy
I guess I know he could never really chop off my hands
Or could he
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9. |
Monster
03:41
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MONSTER
Destroy me
As want turns to need
You murder me
Just to watch me bleed
I live inside
My own make believe
I sacrifice
What you can't see
I'm hissing mad
And I'm dripping wet
I have no father
I have no pet
And I'll be damned
The day I die
Your anti muse
Your anti lie
Can I speak (Can I speak)
I will destroy
If I speak (If I speak)
It will destroy
How I speak (How I speak)
I will destroy
When I speak (When I speak)
It will destroy you
Another lover, another man
Another victim of circumstance
I close my eyes
With no regret
I know your name baby
But I forget
My mouth is cruel
And my lips are mean
I'm dirty minded
And I'm obscene
But I'll be saved
The day I die
I'll be your muse
I'll be your lie
Can I speak (Can I speak)
I will destroy
If I speak (If I speak)
It will destroy
How I speak (How I speak)
I will destroy
When I speak (Yeah)
It will destroy you
I see God
And he's my friend
But the devil's standing next to him
He says my name
And I feel so weak
Just like a monster
Who cannot speak
I'm like a monster
When I speak
Am I a monster
When I speak
You're just a monster
When you speak
So I'm a monster when I speak
Can I speak
I'll be your monster
When we speak
And I'll speak to destroy
Speak and destroy
Speak and destroy
Speak and destroy
Yeah
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10. |
Sick With It
03:32
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SICK WITH IT
Sick....
Sick with disease
Deny addiction
Down on my knees
Feed my affliction
Scared to believe
My own decisions
Eager to please
Distorted visions
Breathe life
Need life
Breath life
Keep life
Lie and deceive
With no emotion
False promises
Loss of devotion
Scarred by deceit
My self-destruction
Love obsolete
Live in dysfunction
Breathe life
Need life
Breathe life
Heal life
Bleed life
Feel life
Keep life the sweet life
Is all I want, all I want
Can I bleed for the ritual
Bleed for it
Got a need for the ritual
Can I breathe for the ritual
Breathe for it
Got a need for the ritual
Can I breathe for the ritual
Breathe for it
Got a need for the ritual
Can I bleed for the ritual
Bleed for it
Got a need for the ritual
Sick with it
Sick with it
Sick with it
Sick with it
Sick with it
Sick with it
Sick with It
It's inside me
I feel it growing
Nowhere to hide
My anger's showing
Breathe life
Need life
Breathe life
Heal life
Bleed life
Feel life
Keep life the sweet life
And on this dark night of my soul
I will continue to pray for us
And try to remember only the good things
The sweet life
The sweet life
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11. |
My Beautiful Flower
04:17
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MY BEAUTIFUL FLOWER
Your mouth blooms like a cut
Sweet and full of sin
I prick myself on your thorns
And I bleed within
Your leaves fade to brown
And I watch you die
In my torture garden
Under black sunshine
My beautiful flower
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
Our love starts to spoil
Your lips bleed like a rose
Underneath the soil
Is where the evil grows
Your petals start to fall
And the weeds attack
In my torture garden
The blue sky is black
My beautiful flower
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
Your mouth blooms like a cut
Sweet and full of sin
I prick myself on your thorns
And I bleed within
Our love starts to spoil
Your lips bleed like a rose
Underneath the soil
Is where the evil grows
I am earth
You can feel me touch you
Hear me breath
Cause it's my air that loves you
And I am fire
You will feel me burn you
Come inside
And I'll be water with you
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
He loves me not, he loves me
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12. |
Diavolina
04:45
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DIAVOLINA
Yeah
This is a mantra for myself
This is a mantra for someone else
This is a mantra so be warned
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned
Sweetly...
He smiles at me so bright it burns me
Tongue twisted sick with words
She'll get what she deserves
She got what she deserved
See me...
I look at you so deep that she feels me
Girl tricks make you believe but she steals me
I will be her disease
Diavolina screams
This is a mantra for myself
This is a mantra for someone else
This is a mantra so be warned
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned
Keep me..
So safe inside your sins are secret
I watch you live your life in regret
You'll get what you deserve
Sleepy...
You close your eyes but you can't dream me
Dirty girl so mean can't clean me
I will be your disease
Diavolina screams
This is a mantra for myself
This is a mantra for someone else
This is a mantra so be warned
Hell hath no fury like a woman...
And I swear sacred as this heart of mine
Strong as the ties that bind us
Heavy as this cross which I forever bear
Eternity will be the hell we share
What you want I don't care
Cause it doesn't concern me
This is about what I need
So bleed as the needle goes in
I'm creeping under your skin
Soak you in sickness
And scent you in sin
So say you love her and I'll believe you
But if you can't
Then you only deceive you
I said I love you and I don't lie
Remember that...
Next time you kiss me goodbye
And I swear, sacred as this song to me
All the way to the end
That I will never let this happen again
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13. |
June 10th
04:38
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JUNE 10TH
Do you remember those words you whispered to me
On that fateful day in Italy Mr B?
I can hear you singing
Face on fire
Blue skies, your eyes
My beautiful liar
I'm still breathing
You can't kiss me
Kill me darling
I know you miss me
Can't resist me
Call me Miss B
I love it when you call me Miss B
Can you hear me talking
Can you see me
Red lights my lips
She can never be me
She can never be me
Now I'm screaming
What can I break
My heart's broken
Silver Lake
San Francisco
Switzerland, Lacunza,
England, Budapest,
Mulhouse, June 10th
June 10th
Do you remember June 10th
I can't forget June 10th
I remember when we met
Do you remember or do you forget
You were so perfect, so pure
Like an angel
You were like an angel, amen
And I remember thinking
I remember thinking
My God
My God he is just so beautiful
So fucking amazing
And every night
Every night I would watch you
I would watch you watching me
And we swore
We swore that night
That nothing would come between us
That no one would come between us
Do you remember
Ecstasy in Paris
Laying down in the middle of the street
In the middle of the night
In the center of you
I was humbled by your power
On the 9th plane
666 Acacia Avenue
Somewhere in hell
Digging the hell out of you
Digging the hell in you
My co conspirator
My executioner
My sacrificial lamb
My friend
My lover
My martyr
Are you my enemy now
You once asked me "is existence all we share?"
You tell me when you remember June 10th
Do you remember June 10th?
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14. |
Bright Red Scream
04:01
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BRIGHT RED SCREAM
You say I'm angry
I guess I should be
Because it makes me happy
My mind is creepy
I guess it could be
Depends on what you ask me
You are my bright red scream
Girl wet dream
You are my bright red scream
When I sleep I dream of you
You say I'm scary
I guess I could be
Cause when I speak you fear me
My mouth is dirty
I guess it would be
Pretend you just don't hear me
You are my bright red scream
Girl wet dream
You are my bright red scream
Nothing is what it will seem
And I'm your scary teddy bear
Love me, hate me
I let you drive me crazy
Crucify me or do you wanna save me
Yes, no, maybe
It doesn't matter baby
You're not so clean
That I can't make you wanna scream
Scream, scream, scream with me
Bright red scream
Girl wet dream
You are my bright red scream
Scream with me
Scream for me
I'm not mean
I'm just not nice
And there's a difference
Thank you for remaining at a safe distance
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Cosmetic
04:05
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COSMETIC
Elegantly wasted and I can taste it
Here I sit, trying not to fake this
Gift, of the beauty myth
I can't help but feel like this
Bored, of the beauty whore
Cause my body just wants more
Scars, I can feel them
Wounds, I can't heal them
Red bring my mouth to life
Black revive my hair that's dyed
Make-up always helps me hide
What I don't like on the outside
Starlight, star bright
First star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have the wish I wish tonight
A birthday girl
A broken heart
You name the drama
She played the part
Long lost demons leave her godless
Like her powder leaves her flawless
Sugar coated heart shaped pout
Lipstick just distorts her mouth
Mascara puts her eyes to sleep
Cause beauty's only skin deep
Starlight, star bright,
First star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have the wish I wish tonight
Starlight, star bright,
First star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have the wish I wish tonight
Bitch du jour served on a platter
She's so pretty It does it matter
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
But nobody told her
Mirror mirror on the wall
Watch her break and watch her fall
Stitch her smile and bruise her knees
Walk among her enemies
Starlight, star bright,
First star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have the wish I wish tonight
Starlight, star bright,
First star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have the wish I wish tonight
Blessed am I among women
To live and love in such a beautiful temple
Blessed am I among women
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16. |
Sycophant
03:59
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SYCOPHANT
Something wicked this way comes
Premeditated evil numbs
Cartoon kids crayola smiles
Children of the KoЯn fed styles
But I don't buy your lies
I see through your disguise
Don't feel your screams or cries
Why
I'm sick of looking, so sick I can't
I'm sick, of the sycophant
Sick of listening, so sick I can't
I'm sick, of the sycophant
Sick of looking, so sick I can't
I'm sick, of the sycophant
Sick of listening, so sick I can't
I'm sick
I see you breathless and deranged
A little girl who's acting strange
Tryna scare us with your scream
But it's all routine
And all you've done is take, steal and imitate
You are what you create, you're fake
I'm sick of looking, so sick I can't
I'm sick, of the sycophant
Sick of listening, so sick I can't
I'm sick, of the sycophant
Sick of looking, so sick I can't
I'm sick, of the sycophant
Sick of listening, so sick I can't
I'm sick
I barely recognize
You in your new disguise
Cosmetic covered eyes
Just tell me..why...why...why...why
You put the make-up on
Take the make-up off
Searching to be found
But you're so fuckin' lost
So fuckin' lost
Now the road to hell is paved with stones
And some of those are fakes and clones
Counterfeits which suck and bleed us
Wearin' fuckin' Adidas
But something just ain't right
No substance only hype
With "Faith" you got the life that made you rich
And a punk ass bitch
I'm sick of looking, so sick I can't
I'm sick, of the sycophant
Sick of listening, so sick I can't
I'm sick, of the sycophant
Sick of looking, so sick I can't
I'm sick, of the sycophant
Sick of listening, so sick I can't
I'm sick, sick, sick of you
And anyone like you
Sometimes I think I've lost my mind
Or else this whole world's blind
Damn, fuck...there's gonna be a fight now
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17. |
Epilogue
00:43
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18. |
Beware Of God
00:27
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19. |
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FEVER
I, I think I'll cut myself
Cut myself free
Now I'm somewhere else
I need to be
Wasted with no sleep
Forgot to pray
Jesus, can you hear me
Nails keep pounding
You push your fingers into holes
Of what my questions left
And as I drown your mouth in red
You fear what I will ask next
I violate your faith
And wonder what you really taste like
Feel the sensation of depth, I lied
Can't help me now
It's under my skin
Nowhere to go
But I won't give in
Can't help me now
I'm bleeding within
Nowhere to go
I'll never let you in
I have a fear of dying
I could, I could worship you
Make you behave
I'd tell, tell you anything
Just to be saved
Baby how's your faith these days
Do you feel safe
Kiss me, sunlight makes us sick
As nails keep pounding
You wrap your legs around my mind
Ten times and hide in me
The darker that it gets outside
Your heats a 1000 degrees
I'll make you swallow spit
You're sick with it, you're sick from me
Don't say I didn't warn you, I tried
Can't help me now
It's under my skin
Nowhere to go
But I won't give in
Can't help me now
I'm bleeding within
Nowhere to go
I'll never let you in
What god created me (your god)
What god created us (your god)
What god created this thing called lust
Your god created me (what god)
Your god created us (what god)
Your god created...fuck your god
Can't help me now
It's under my skin
Nowhere to go
But I won't give in
Can't help me now
I'm bleeding within
Nowhere to go
I'll never let you in
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