Throat Full Of Heart

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SURPRISE! In honor of this date, we have decided to make one of our favorite albums from the past available for FREE!

For those of you who have never heard our 2008 released album “Throat Full of Heart” we invite you to download a copy to add to your My Ruin collection. The album is FREE however, if you would like to include a donation with your download, we thank you and as always, appreciate your continued support as independent artists!

We previously released TFOH on our own imprint (Rovena Recordings) via Cargo Records UK as a double CD Digipak which also included a 2 hour behind the scenes DVD. Although this album was critically acclaimed, unfortunately the distribution we had hoped to achieve through Cargo was disappointing to say the least and it was very difficult for fans to find in stores at the time of its release. When it did finally come out in the US, it was only available as an import and even harder to find. It was also ridiculously expensive and not available worldwide as promised by Cargo.

Being that we now own the rights, we want EVERYONE to have a chance to finally hear this album which we remain very proud of and which has gone under the radar to some extent. For those of you who want physical copies for your collections, we have made 12 limited edition signed digipaks available to purchase in the store which will also come with a FREE download of the album and for those of you who don’t know, the album also comes with a little story…

We were set to begin recording sessions for what was to be My Ruin’s 5 full length album on September 29th, 2006. We had spent months in pre production writing & demoing songs and were ready to rock. It was the evening before entering the studio and we were excited to embark on a new album with our band mates at the time which included our good friend Matt LeChevalier who recently toured the UK with us on drums.The guys were loading in gear and I decided to have a night off and meet up with a couple girlfriends for dinner to celebrate not knowing that this decision would change my life forever. This was 8 years ago tonight.

After dinner, one of my friends offered to drive me home. I had no idea she was intoxicated because she seemed fine. Within just minutes of getting into her car and driving down Santa Monica Blvd, we crashed. She swerved and hit a street sweeper which was parked and a huge metal rod ripped through the passenger side open window and came straight for my neck which I somehow managed block with my left forearm and a quick reflex. Like most accidents, it all happened very fast but seemed like it was in slow motion.

The rod tore open my arm from the elbow to the wrist underneath and punctured a wide deep hole in the top. My friend was not hurt but there was a lot of blood coming from me and a burning sensation that felt like I was on fire from the inside. I can still remember all the people on the sidewalk who were screaming and trying to get me out of the car while calling 911. My friend managed to call Mick and handed me the phone. I told him I had been in an accident and thought I was going to die. Then everything went black.

When I woke up, I was in trauma at Cedars Sinai under very bright lights and about to go into surgery. I was told I had been in an accident and might lose my arm due to the intensity and depth of the injury. Mick rushed to the hospital and we had exchanged a few words before they took me away. When I woke up a few hours later, I was thankful to find I still had all my body parts in tact. This was the first of a few surgeries which followed in the coming weeks. I didn’t want my injury to derail our months of planning so I told the guys to go into the studio and record the music while I began my road to recovery.

We pushed back my vocal sessions for a couple months while I rested and healed. Once I felt able to scream again, I laid the vocals for this album while still heavily bandaged and full of pain killers before my final skin graft surgery. During this time, I decided to re write the lyrics for one of the last tracks of the album while in the studio. This became “Through the Wound” that also happened to contain the words which inspired the album title and my personal anthem of strength and recovery which still brings back some heavy memories when I listen to it today.

Needless to say, this album means a great deal to both Mick and me on a personal level. It will always remind us of a special time in both our lives and the band as well as the out pouring of love from so many of our friends and fans who took the journey of “Throat Full of Heart” along side us. ♡ Mrs M

WATCH ★ Stitches & Staples w/ Tairrie B. Part 1
www.youtube.com/watch?v=vD8P9CbumDI

WATCH ★ Stitches & Staples w/ Tairrie B. Part 2
www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7AC5vdo-UY

WATCH ★ UK/Europe Album Release Commercial:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuVz2O04jVA

WATCH ★ US Album Release Show:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=15GyRVN_ozk

WATCH ★ 'Ready For Blood' - Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ldy09zE-qfk

WATCH ★ 'Me Without You' - Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=1bGD2UWNWtw

WATCH ★ 'Religiosity' - Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=BMfxZIyWaY4

WATCH ★ 'Slide You The Horn' - Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORByZ8XbzJY
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◄| Throat Full Of Heart / Press Quotes |►

" Iconic female fronted hate metal crew back from the dead once more. One after the other they come. each track an unsubtle battering ram. If you expected a sedative dosed Tairrie B to sound less than lethal following her recovery from a horrific car accident, think again. My ruin don't do anything by halves. It's all or nothing and you'll either love or hate this fearsome return. We'll bet the former." 4/5 Steve Beebee // Kerrang Magazine
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"Most of the screaming vocals on TFOH were recorded with Miss B quite literally in agony, her raw arm bandaged and slung up. The result is more brutal but surprisingly more upbeat than anything My Ruin have done before - and that includes the blistering doom vibes of 2005's 'A Brutal Language'. A hefty dose of Southern rock, an unforgiving slab of hardcore and more hard rocking melodies than you can shake a stick at. For anyone who thought My Ruin were just another generic female-fronted metal band, stick 'TFOH' in your player and prepare to be surprised. From the opening thunder of 'Ready For Blood' to the sudden ending of 'Through The Wound' this band just gets better and better." 8/10 Natasha Scharf // Metal Hammer Magazine
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"Just as My Ruin were due to go in to the studio to record their latest album, Throat Full of Heart, vocalist Tairrie B was involved in a very serious car accident that almost lost her her arm and her life. With ‘Through the Wound’ claiming that, “On the other side of the scars, the way out is through the wound”, the raw emotion is clearly audible in Tairrie’s voice and the pain that she went through from her accident is clearly projected through the music. Nowadays it’s difficult to find this much passion, with more and more bands opting for the easy route of just banging-out a few killer riffs and screaming like a little girl over the top of it. Not to say that Mick Murphy doesn’t play killer riffs, he definitely does and his are more honest, more natural and more brutal! Harking back to the classic metal bands from way-back-when, with Black Sabbath being a prime example, My Ruin put their own modern spin on the best of the best and Throat Full of Heart perfectly documents this. With one of the strongest opening tracks in the history of albums, ‘Ready For Blood’ packs a punch of real rock ‘n’ roll raunch. Not letting-up for a second, This all-killer-no-filler offering from LA’s finest is proof that rock ‘n’ roll ain’t dead: it’s still brutal; it still hurts; it doesn’t get much better than My Ruin." 5/6 Thrash Hits. com

"Mick Murphy’s guitar kills you, then Tairrie B’s voice flays your dead flesh. That’s how Los Angeles’ My Ruin have rolled for nearly a decade. Through several albums and quite a few drummers and bassists; that’s how they roll on “Throat Full of Heart.” And it’s one of my favorite punishments this year. Murphy’s axwork is indomitable: the belly-slug riff and lunatic lead on 'Memento Mori,; for instance, or the sexy, shoulder-shaking figure he loops out while riding LeChevalier’s wide-open high hat on “Nothing Is Sacred. And what can you say about Tairrie B, who plunged into recording this album while recovering from an auto accident that nearly ripped off her arm? Expressing and transcending pain is what her soul-scouring roar is all about." Greg Burke // Metal Jazz.. com

credits

released 19 January 2008

Produced by Mick Murphy & D.Burda
Engineered & Mixed by D.Burda
Recorded @ The Hobby Shop Highland Park, Ca.
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Lyrics - Tairrie B Murphy
Music - Mick Murphy
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Vocals - Tairrie B Murphy
Guitar - Mick Murphy
Bass - Chris Lisee
Drums - Matt LeChevalier
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Cover & Booklet Art Designed by Tairrie B. Murphy

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Track Name: Ready For Blood
READY FOR BLOOD
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Daughters of Mara, cast this net into the shallow
Drag the water...personalities so hollow
Underneath the surface cowards tell their tales of woe
Count your casualties so clever,
Nothing stays buried forever!

Tell your god to ready for blood words will be your own demise!
Tell your god to ready for blood - loyalty is just a lie!

Drag the water...trust in those that we can see
Daughters of Mara, recognize my enemies
Forgive our trespasses keep our conscious clean
Let me give your last words to the devil,
Nothing stays buried forever!

Time heals everything, except this hatred in my heart
Friendships that can cease were never true...
I'd rather be feared than be loved!

Tell your god to ready for blood...
Stay the fuck away from us!
Tell your god to ready for blood...
Tell your god we've had enough!
Learn who is real, recount them at a later date,
Burn Hollywood burn, all those that are so fake!

Sleep deprived me of impulsiveness to lie,
Now I send condolences to those that we watched die...
No good deed goes unpunished.

In the end I won't remember words of enemies,
Just the silence of those who claimed to be friends of me.
Desecrated memories became a blessing in disguise,
It took a brutal language to open up my fucking eyes!
Track Name: Memento Mori
MEMENTO MORI
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Remember you are mortal, remember you will die
Within this moment of truth you must prove yourself divine...
And when salvation comes the water always rises
The devil hides his face and smiles in his disguises

No mercy, pity or love
All pray in their distress
And in our garden of delight there is no forgiveness
No mercy, pity or love
Your hero she will burn
Time flies among the roses infected by the worm

O kind and most sweet Jesus, the day of the dead has passed
They question our existence for nothing ever lasts...
Irreverent with regret, there is a howling storm
The angel fell from grace and now her halo's filled with thorns

No mercy, pity or love
All pray in their distress
And in our garden of delight there is no forgiveness
No mercy, pity or love
Your hero she will burn
Time flies among the roses infected by the worm

Ore para nosotros! Ore para nosotros!

All my precious wounds will leak
From this prophecy I speak
Pierce my arms and my feet
Cast myself down on my knees!

Through repentance she is saved
Froom her sins and hate within...
Mememto Mori!
Hope and sentiments of faith..
Benevolent and safe - Memento Mori!
Ore para nosotros... Ore para nosotros!
Track Name: Skeleton Key
SKELETON KEY
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Got her photo with her Christ and his autograph tonight
Kissed his lips and held his hand,
Told her friends she's with the band

Mister innocent I'm sure, she's too young and immature
Sincerity is the new vulgarity!

Come on baby you don't wanna be that nice
Sell yourself for any price
Sacrifice your self respect,
You're just dying to connect

Look at all the pretty whores
Pick the one who will be yours
Say those lines you've memorized
Be like all the other guys...

Mister innocent I'm sure , she's too dumb and insecure
Sincerity is the new vulgarity!

Come on baby you don't wanna be that nice
Sell yourself for any price
Sacrifice your self respect,
You're just dying to connect

Put your voodoo on her, don't be so superstitious
Put your voodoo on her, your words are so delicious
Put your voodoo on her, don't be so superstitious
Put your voodoo on her, remember hide the mirrors

Ink your signature into her skin,
You just want to be wanted
When you smile you are so sweet,
Let's pretend that I'm naive
Close my eyes and I can't see where I've got my tongue in cheek

Let it run it's course and you'll be redeemed
Open every door for your self esteem,
Got your skeleton key and it's safe to say
Everyone is starved for attention these days
Track Name: Me Without You
ME WITHOUT YOU
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If we can't trust another and the night won't let us sleep...
Will all the pills I take each day still keep me on my feet?
With every friend we make we make another enemy...
But when all is said and all is done
It's only you and me you and me!

Yesterday has come and gone
There is no looking back
Tomorrow we will smile
The past is just the past!

Now the sun has started shining and we're back where we belong
And everything just feels right but I know it could go wrong
If we trust so easy all these friends that come and go
So promise that you won't forget
Remember what we know... what we know!

Yesterday has come and gone
There is no looking back
Tomorrow we will smile
The past is just the past!

Today we wash our hands
And all our sins are so clean
Don't you know we've grown tired of always wondering!

For every story that is told
Another one is kept
But when the truth is finally spoke then we'll see who's left!

Yesterday has come and gone
There is no looking back
Today we smile and we laugh
The past is just the past!
Track Name: Religiosity
RELIGIOSITY
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Through the eyes of vanity, chaos and anarchy
You come to me with open arms still needing
Have lamb, will martyr
Have lamb, will slaughter
Let me lay my hands upon you and bring you to your knees!

Religiosity
Dedication and belief
Your God can't help you now!
Curiosity
There is no relief
My God is empty now!

Through the eyes of vanity
The years of sanity
I come to you with open wounds still bleeding...
Have lamb, will martyr
Have lamb, will slaughter
Lay yourself upon me baby and bring me to my knees!

Religiosity
Dedication and belief
My God can't help me now!
Curiosity
There is no relief
Your God is empty now!

Obscene dirt worshiping heathens flock to the Judas like flies on shit...The only way to get rid of the pain is just to live through it.

And we are punished for having no regrets
And we are banished by those who bought into it!

If knowing is cognition and feeling is effect
Then doing is behavior what comes next?
Through the eyes of greed and lust
You never wanted to believe in us!

Is it a love of lying or is it fear of dying?
Does it really matter if no one bothers trying?
And in the aftermath when there is nothing left...
Will everyone just go away when everything has been said?

The road to perdition is paved with good intentions
The road to salvation is lined with your obsessions
Track Name: Slide You The Horn
SLIDE YOU THE HORN
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Are you ready?
Come on, yeah!

Come on baby cause we're going down
Tearing up this whole damn town
Light it up and take a hit
Come alive and shake that shit!

Here we go, we're at it again
Living fast yeah sin after sin
Been held down for way too long
Come over here while I slide you the horn!

It's a crazy little party town
Flying high 'til we hit the ground
Come on honey let's tie one on
Keep it going to the break of dawn, yeah!

Here we go, we're at it again
Living fast ...sin after sin
Been held down for way too long
Come over here while I slide you the horn...slide it!

Yeah... you're going down baby
Ooooh... driving me crazy
No....body can save me
Can't fight it ....know you gotta slide it yeah... Ooooh yeah!

A little whisky is all we need
Some uncle Jack from Tennessee
So come on baby let me see you shake
You're going down while we Pick Up The Snake!

Here we go, we're at it again
Living fast yeah sin after sin
Been held down for way too long
Come over here while I slide you the horn...Yeah!
You're going down baby, ooooh driving me crazy
No....body can save me
Can't fight it know you gotta slide it yeah... Oh yeah!

Here we go rock hard fast... die young stay pretty...
You know it won't last, no way!
Track Name: Not This Time
NOT THIS TIME
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You leave a dirty trail...so obvious like the rest,
But it's easy to find you when you're living way out west!
Don't cut your mouth on a sharp tongue,
Better watch out what you say!
I'm not so nice today, it hasn't gone away yet
And I’m not going nowhere
So you better get used to it!

It's all good and fake distance keeps you safe
There's six degrees of no space
Good try but not this time!

Mediocre fits you perfect and I’m so amused to hear it,
But I’ll never buy your bullshit
Just like I will never fear it!
Keep kissing ass, shaking hands
Be careful where you play!
I'm not so nice today, it hasn't gone away yet...
And I’m not going nowhere
So you better get used to it!

It's all good and fake distance keeps you safe
There's six degrees of no space
Good try but not this time!

Your life like your mind feeds all your lies!
It's been a long time coming...long time coming!
And I’m so glad I went with my instincts and did this
While they all think you're perfect so we must have deserved it!
But I know quite different
So I will rid myself of words which I have held hostage
In memory of a girl!

Your opinion who asked for it considering all that you've said...
The never ending shit talking will never be forgotten!

Your life like your mind feeds all your lies!
No... Not this time!
No... Not this time!
No... Not this time!
I cut the ties that bind!

You...keep playing the martyr!
You...keep playing the martyr!
You... keep playing the martyr!
Good try but not this time!
Track Name: Dragon Steel
DRAGON STEEL
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Hey boy, keep talking you watch and we'll keep rockin'
Got the ego but ya got no heart,
Got all dressed up and couldn't play the part...
Your friends, you keep them,
Don't know them and we didn't wanna meet em
Keep it going but you ain't for real
You ain't nothing but dragon steel!

Put the hammer down,
Gonna ride right over you now...
Put the hammer down
Gonna ride gonna ride right over...
Put the hammer down
Gonna ride right over you now...
Put that hammer down!

Hey boy, you want it, can't get it but you know we've got it,
Happened so fast that it must be fate
One day you're here next day replaced!
Your face, two sided
We know you and you know you can hide it
Keep it going but you ain't for real
You ain't nothing but Dragon Steel!


You look so bloated in your self important fame
They see your photos but nobody knows your name!
Take your dumb blonde cocaine whore
Feed her lies and sell her more,
Tell your family that you're fine,
Work that door and do your time!

Put the hammer down
Gonna ride right over you now...
Put the hammer down
Gonna ride, gonna ride motherfucker!
Put the hammer down
Gonna ride right over you now,
Put that hammer down!

You're just a mouth that's talking loud
You're just a mouth talking!
You're just a mouth that's talking loud
You're just a mouth talking!

Karma... Karma... Karma...
Look how far that pendulum's swung now bitch!
Track Name: Nothing Is Sacred
NOTHING IS SACRED
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I know you think you know me
From all of the magazines
Everybody loves a good comeback story
But that's really not my scene
I don't wanna be the one you love,
You'll just hate me again next month
Let's not pretend that we are friends
I don't wanna shake your hand!

Your ego speaks so fluent
But your words are just so passe
And you know I knew you'd do it
I wouldn't have it any other way
Now you're coming into my home
Let me kill two birds with one stone
It's gonna take much more than your pen
To write me off again!

This is the art of screaming
There's nothing sacred here
You'd better sort your demons and find out what you fear!

If everything I say offends you
Maybe you should go back to church
I've got a lot of enemies, true...
But that's because I hated them first!

So let me pray for rock
You keep praying to God
The Devil's on his way and he can't be stopped,
We're all gonna die so cover your wrists
And lord have mercy on my lips!

This is the art of screaming
There's nothing sacred here
You'd better sort your demons and find out what you fear!

This is the art of breathing
It's all or nothing here!
It's time to face your mirror and find the one you fear!
Track Name: Through The Wound
THROUGH THE WOUND
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Late at night I watch as the sun comes up
The break of day is not enough,
Was I really dead?
And I remember how I felt this time last year
Wonder will it disappear somethings gotta give

Never let go of that fiery sadness
Throat Full of Heart ...mouth of madness

By mistake I swallow another pill
Bittersweet is such a thrill
Try to feel alive
And I forget all the pain just goes away
Wish that I could sleep all day disconnect myself

Never let go of that fiery sadness
Throat Full of Heart ...mouth of madness

Is it better to defeat this monster
Be secure in the silence or to be devoured... devoured?
And when I stand before you at the end of this...
Will I have enough guts to love those little slices of my death?

Never let of that fiery sadness
Never let go of that fiery sadness

And I would rather have eyes that can't see,
Ears that can’t hear, lips that can't speak...
Than a heart which no longer can beat...

This strange melancholy pervades me at which I hesitate
to give the grave and that beautiful name of...my life!

On the other side of the scars...
The way out is through the wound
On the other side of the scars...
The way out is through the wound

Courage doesn't always roar, sometimes courage is that little voice
At the end of the day that says, I'll try again tomorrow...